Blogging goes slower for a day as I finally have my
own copy of Joseph Heller's historical satire...
Happy Reading to me !!

Eyes are Precious!!! But so is Profession ...

Hit the clinic today for an eye check-up. Thank God for bringing in all these ISO Certifications, coz hospital scenarios have improved tremendously in India !! Dressed like a failing pop-star (read: in white), I braved my way through the crowd waiting for their ocular mending. Was lucky enough to get a quick appointment with the doctor with whose conversation,some part I would like to share:
Doc: So U complain of itching and watering?? (Psst...psst...sounded more like I had some strange boils bursting all over mu body..)
Me: In eyes..
Doc: Ahh..yes, of course..What do you do?
Me: nothing !!! (pah...my dumb mind) they just start irritating me when I wake aa..
Doc: (cutting my words) They r ur eyes...How can u accuse them of irritating U?
(By Now, I was sure that the Doc had a really pathetic breakfast or row with wife in morning today, that he is leaving no stone unturned to irritate his patients even more.)
Me:(displaying more patience) Yes Doctor..But I cant really get along the whole day well if the morning starts such.
Doc: (testing my eyes) hmmmm....lets see...What do u work as?
Me: Software Engiii.....
Doc: (again cutting my words) There lies the problem, my lady! Ur job is the culprit !! Leave it....and U shall not suffer anymore !!
(While the Doctor was dancing around like an Oracle having just delivered a prophecy, I couldn't believe my ears on what he was saying.)
Me: Doc, U dont understand...its my profession. Don't know what will I do without it.
Doc: What will you do without your eyes lady? Blindly, bang on your computer? Tell me tell me tell me....
(I realised at this precise moment that the Doc had no particular liking towards people of my race, the I.T. race. So it was time now to race out of his room before he would pull out my eyes for their safety.)
Me: Give me medicines Doc. I promise to use them without fail and take frequent breaks while at work. (Now thats something nobody ever needs to tell me to :D )
Doc: I shall do that...Its my job. But I see one more young girl falling prey to vision blurs for not heeding my words.It wouuuu...
Me: (cutting his words, surprise!) Doc, please...Lemme go..I got to get back to work..And its far. Will come back to u if problem persists.

He didnt say a word more..Got my state, I guess.Prescription given, I am out.
Out wondering, what good am I doing to myself with this profession? Ironically, losing my vision not to see the crisis that world is plunging into, day after day. But it really isn't worth it, is it?

Open and Bold

Puts you in a frenzy of thoughts about yourself. What is being Open and Bold ? As a person? More, as a woman? Deeper, as myself? Thought a lot over it. While for a moment, I felt one example would be my openness to discuss one's sexuality and sexual preferences without hesitation, it felt too irrational a moment later, rather it seemed like my try to get a good position in the metrosexual era.
A more diplomatic side would be as explaining personal perception to all aspects of life, be it the extreme or subdued phase. The openness comes in clearly putting out your ideas to the person listening to you, and listening to them effectively vice-versa. The boldness comes in the revelation of your ideas unbatedly, no matter how cynical it might sound.We all, defer to be open and bold always, especially as a woman (Indian society demands it, I can say that without being a feminist.)When I try to be open on sensitive issues, it can be misunderstood as my lack of knowledge about the sensitivity, or as the immature thought-process of a nubile mind who eventually, stops thinking before talking. Being insensitive doesn't help either.
But in reality, is it restricted only to sensitiveness? My answer would be no. In fact, every person's, and more being a woman, every word is under scrutiny. The words that you speak or write about anything, hand-picked or flowing out, everything.
The thoughts never thought of, the words never spoken, they all fall back on you eventually, while you plead innocence with an argument of being "Open and Bold".

NIAGARA, I havent seen U, yet Pine for U, alongside my Love....
poem By Wallace Bruce:

Proud swaying pendant of a crystal chain,
On fair Columbia's rich and bounteous breast,
With beaded lakes that necklace-like retain
Heaven's stainless blue with golden sunlight blest!
What other land can boast a gem so bright!
With colors born of sun and driven spray -
A brooch of glory, amulet of might,
Where all the irised beauties softly stray.
Ay, more - God's living voice, Niagara, thou!
Proclaiming wide the anthem of the free;
The starry sky the crown upon thy brow,
Thy ceaseless chant a song of Liberty.
But this thy birthright,
this thy sweetest dower,Yon arching rainbow -
Love still spanning Power.

YES+ for me !!!!

My colleague urges me to do YES+ persistently. He finally succeeded in inducing a certain amount of inquisitiveness in my forever scurrying mind about this Art of Living (you guessed it right, its that kinda ! Dont be surprised I am going for it !!) course. And here I put what I read about it on their official site. (Please go search on net if you want more details, I dont have time to do depth research )
"The Youth Empowerment Seminar Plus (YES!+) is an intensive programme that offers tools for young people to learn how to navigate through life’s challenges. This innovative and dynamic educational and life skills programme provides young students and professionals the tools to achieve their ideal life with ease.
The growing demands placed on an individual to be successful in our fast-paced, stressful society make it even more necessary for college students to acquire the tools to take responsible life decisions with confidence and clarity, more joy and enthusiasm. Under stress and pressure, the mind often vacillates between regretting the past and worrying about the future and this results in lower performance, lack of concentration, decreased efficiency and more interpersonal conflicts. The YES!+ course empowers students to become more centred and focused.
What Do I Get?

• Learn to relax and meditate
• Deal with doubts
• Increase focus and concentration
• Fitness and health
• Break monotony
• Find a deeper meaning to life "

Wait a sec. Do I need all this? Yes, I do, !!!! Actually, atleast some of them. But being anti- Shri Shri jee.....funny hurting own pride going for his course. Course....hmmmm....I guess I still have time to think. Art of Living, gotta do some pro-research on that :))

Bade asked me to pen down my thoughts as and when they flow....The disastrous outcome to be put in action finally, I guess. But does that mean my blog stops?

Not at all !!! Any readable, censored, decent, U/A (jus kiddin!) stuff will still have its preference here ! Blog always remains one of my favourite relaxation points.. And for some others, an added advantage to pull my leg for all the stupidity I pour in here...

(This is a note of thanks to the blog space for bearing my thoughts.)

The moment of surrendering to Sun's bright rays and bowing to daylight,
the acceptance of a new beginning and end of past,
I realised his presence in me, the non-perishing stills engraved deep in my heart,
he was me, I were him, two bodies, one soul, and a heart beating.

Why the drift when we stand frozen? Why the dryness when we are flowing?
Why the pain when soothing all around? Why the cold when warmth spreads?

Let me just drown back into the night, sans rays, sans brightness, sans anything, into him...and bliss....